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I jumped on the scale this morning in anticipation that it would read that I am halfway to my ultimate goal.  I started to remember why I started this journey in the first place and it really shocked me how my motivation had changed.  I started this journey to please others and to look good in clothes.  I was thinking that I will be so vain in the beginning of this process. 

However, over the passed years I lost my best friend to a heart attack.  Right when we were suppose to start her journey two weeks after and then go to NYC to go shopping for NYE.  I lost my mother *sadface*.  So, it took me out of commission for a while for my journey, but during that time I learned something about myself.  I love to workout to relive me of the stress that I go thru.  And I ended up maintaining my weightloss (maybe +5lbs or -5lbs). 

So, I started again in October 2009 to lose the weight for good and look great for my graduation this comign May (MBA Baby ).  And God sent me some amazing women to keep me on track.  I have a wonderful trainer that understands that women have curves, just she wants to tighten it up.  She is concerned when I am down, ask about my eating, and challenges me each week.  You guys I have ran two 5k races (NON STOP).  I run every night to help me sleep better and I am learning so much about how much I can really push my body.

Therefore, my motivation is not how “good” I will look afterwards, it is how I feel on the inside.  What keeps me motivated?  The fact that each week I notice a bicep, fat roll getting smaller, triceps, heavier weights I can now lift, how much longer I can run without stopping, and being able to motivate other people. 

I have 50lbs to go.  But I know God has surrounded me with all the tools to now be accountable for now on.  No one will be able to push me to do the right things but ME. 

With all that said ladies…. LET’S KICK BUTT THIS WEEK

I know I have not been up here for a while.  Mainly because I have been extremely busy from mornign workouts, work, school, tests, evening workouts and personal training classes.  Yes, everyone I am keeping myself busy.  The moment someone like me sits down and start thinking about what I can stuff my mouth with, I will do it.

So, people have been asking me what is my diet?  I have no set boundaries of what I eat.  I just eat smarter.  I always eat breakfast (eggs, steak, bacon, apple, watermelon, etc). This is generally my heaviest meal, but I eat small portions.  Go to mcdonald’s and just ask for scrambled eggs and bacon, or your favorite biscuit sandwich without the bagel or biscuit.  You can still enjoy food you guys.  I am snacking all day on food.  But my snacks are watermelon, squash, broccoli, celery, etc.  Those are negative calorie foods and high in fiber.  And small apples.  Since I am at work from 7am to 5:30pm, I try to bring my dinner.  I may have soup before I leave, or I will be starving in class.  And if I am hungry when I get home, I may eat soem carrots, fruit cup (light syrup), or some pickles (favorite).

Workouts.  I am doing p90x.  Ladies if you want a firm butt and arms, I suggest this tape.  It took me three times to really get into it, but I am loving the results.  Just have to get past the first round and you will be fine. PROMISE.  I also joined a bootcamp in the evenings that I do with my girls.  They pump me :).  If you feel you need a group for moral support I suggest that.  Now for the personal training.  I have certain areas that I want to work on.  And I want that hour alone time with someone who is dedicated to see me make it.  And I go three days a week people.  So my rest days are Sunday from al of this.  Since I am sinlge and taking this year to finish my MBA.  What else could I do to make my family proud? Lose the weight and do it the healthy way. 

It may take a while, or it may come faster.  But it is truly a one day, one hour, one minute, and one second battle.  But I know if you guys find something that you love and just get over that first hurdle (30 days generally), you will see results.  This month I am going intense with everything, so the numbers for next month might be crazy!!

Well I have to go back to work.  Good Luck you guys.  And keep the questions coming and suggestions.  It keeps me motivated to try new things.

Just wanted to do a qucik shout out. Everyone knows that I had a horrible day yesterday.  And to make it worse, it was the day before my weigh-in day.  So instead ladies, I spent 3 hours last night working out to calm down.  it worked, because I am sitting here in some pain… lol.

So, I am glad to report that I am 220lbs as of this morning.  Whoot Whoot!!!  #PumpsFist

Therefore, my next mini goal is 215lbs by next week.  And on here it is 210lbs.  I am excited about this journey now.  I have graduation coming up, where ALL of my family is coming.  And then there is my graduation cruise the week after.  I am so ready to do this ladies. 

 Stay motivated and don’t let ANYONE still your sunshine.

Thank you ladies.  I never felt so much rage in my life.  And versus me running back to old habits, I stopped what I was doing today to blog about the situation.  And if that wasn’t enough, I walked on my breaks, and since I felt some more tension when I came home, I worked out in Bootcamp.  No one will EVER hold me down again.

 This is the only relationship that I ever had with verbal, physical, mental abuse.  I have been walked away from the situation. Just to think that he actually was trying his hardest to be friends again, to say this crap to me this morning after I said let’s be friends.

When I say you guys have helped me today, I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!! 

We as women has all types of issues that can cause us to eat and gain weight.  Months ago that is what I would have done.  But instead tonight, I went to Bootcamp and BURNED SOME CALORIES.  Now I am off to do some Kenpo to help for the rest of the evening. 

We are only what we allow in our life.  And I am worth more than this a**!!  Remember you can be the cutest thing in the world, but someone will always find something wrong with you.  You have to love yourself: FLAWS AND ALL!!

I AM GOOD!!!

I have a weigh in tomorrow :).  Pray and cross fingers.  Tomorrow I am suppose to be 220lbs.

 Again thank you.  And have a good evening you guys.

Ok, today I am everything you may think a MAD woman could possibly be.  My ex boyfriend had the nerve to tell me the reason why he has stopped talking to me was because I was TOO BIG for him.  WTH???  Excuse my language you guys.  I was WAY over 250lbs when he was with me 2 years ago and have been down. 

This morning has showed me that I have turned around.  I would usually just want to eat til I dropped.  But I can’t.  I am so ready for Bootcamp and Kenpo on P90x this evening it is a shame.  Had the nerve to tell me my friends are TOO big for me to hang around.  That I should be considering smaller friends.  Ugh!!!  I am so upset.  I took a walk at break to calm down, but I am so over it.

I have fruit today ladies so I know I won’t cheat.  But this just added feul to my fire and I am ready to show his a*s that Alexandra is NOT PLAYING GAMES this time around. 

 Sorry for the language.  I needed to vent.

Well since I started back up on my weight loss journey, I was 235lbs.  This morning’s weigh in I am 221lbs. In these past 3 weeks I have decided to put me first again.  I have surrounded myself around positive women that are working to improve their health.  I may not be the fastest in the class, the strongest, or the most fit.  But I will work just as hard or even harder to get to that place.  Some days it may seem like you just cant or dont want to do it, but I just come home put in the p90x tape and do my BEST.  And then on Tuesday and Saturday Bootcamp, I just show up.  No matter how I feel. 

Ladies we just have to keep going. Even though it seems like we dont, too tired, too stressed, etc.  We are our only setback.  If you know if you go out to eat and cant order a good meal, then dont go until you are ready to be that disciplined.  There are ways we can beat this, so lets do this thing together.

Good Luck you guys,

Alex

Oh where have I been? I can’t believe that I have allowed myself not to reach my goal by dealing with non-sense. Well guess what?  I am back!!!   I have committed to finish my MBA this May 2011, committed to celibacy, committed to loving myself and against domestic violence, committed to move to NYC next summer, and now I am back to commit to my HEALTH!!!  I will be up here almost EVERY day to stay empowered and grab motivation from you guys.Keep me in your prayers during this journey.  I am ready!!!

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Hola chicas!!  I hope all is and have been doing GREAT!  I have been browsing through my friend list, and I have to say I have some sexy friends :).  I am so proud of you guys for continuing to keep up on your weightloss. 

I have been off the site for about 2 months, with school, work, etc.  Trying to GRADUATE MAN…  URGH!!  This MBA program is no JOKE… SMH.  But it has been helping me with keeping up with my weightloss.  How?  Well, walking on that campus every night has been working this body out.  And by the time I get home and work out this body, I am too tired to do my late night snacking :).

Therefore, here is my good news.  For the months that I have been out of commission, I started from 227 to today I am 217.  YEAH!!  Even with the many of nights that I ate WRONG, I have given my body and my health another chance.  For those that knows me, these months have been hard for me.  I lost my bestfriend… MY MOTHER to a heart attack in December ‘09.  If you guys remember back some blogs ago, about her and I putting 100 dollars away so that the end of the year we could go to NYC to go shopping.  The sad thing is, my mother was DEAD SERIOUS!!  When closing her accounts, MY DIVA, had started to put 100 dollars in her savings account called NYC.  So, I know I have to do this for her.  I love her so much.  She pushes me even now to continue with this journey.     

I came from 255lbs to 217lbs in less than 7 months.  So let my story encourage just ONE to start their journey, because you guys inspire me.  Love Ya! Have a GREAT DAY!!

Just something quick.  I had bought these jeans not too long ago, probably a month.  Oh they hug my hips in all the right places, even looked cute in the booty section.  Hey, what’s the point of buying skinny jeans if you do not want to show off the curves?  lol. 

So, I have been going hard these past couple of weeks, just getting right with the eating and working out thing.  Just trying to make it all fit in my crazy schedule.  I haven’t wore these particular jeans in weeks just because.  Now ladies you know how you wash your jeans, they may get a bit snug?  So I thought this particular morning, I was going to have to play the STRETCH you JEANS game :0… where you bend, squat, and everything until the jeans move with you.  LOL!!!  But ironically, it slipped right on.  I looked at myself and said “NAWWW”… and walked out the door.

Ladies, a couple of hours into my day, I walked to the bathroom and noticed that my favorite pair of jeans are not my favorite pair of jeans anymore.  I had saggy booty syndrome.  My co-worker noticed it first.  To her amazement, I laughed out loud and smiled from ear to ear.  It was a compliment. 

My skinny jeans are not skinny jeans anymore.  I am kicking butt!!!  YEAH for Alex!!!  Let’s do it ladies.

Wow, it is crazy to try and squeeze time in to blog to you guys about what’s going on.  I mean with grad school Monday thru Friday, work Monday thru Friday, working out Monday thru Saturday….  OMG when will I find the time.  So, today I decided to rush on here while I am on my down time to tell you guys that I have good darn news.I really don’t know how much I weight right now, because the last time I got so obsessed with the stupid scale, that I crashed when I saw it go up 1lb.  Therefore, I am using pictures to help me out.  I am taking one every 2 weeks to see the difference and hoping on the scale once every two weeks :).  Good thing is that I see the difference in my STOMACH.  When I look at my before and after picture, I am so amazed at the difference, that is scares me.  Just how a little time out for me, I can make a significance difference in my body.Well, since my mother has seen me drop some weight.  We have decided to do something together.  I don’t know if you guys want to try this out with a friend.  Starting in January, each month we will put away $50 to $100 into our savings account.  However, we have a goal each month to reach.  First month for me is 5lbs to 7lbs, and so forth.  If we do not reach our goal, no money goes in the pot.  Reason, because the end of 2010, we are going to NY to go SHOPPING!!!  The more money we have in our savings, the more we get to splurge on a new look.  Therefore, by next December I should be 60lbs to 84lbs lighter, maybe more since I have started now.  But at least 60lbs, I can’t go over that, I will be underweight :(!!  But each month I will adjust it for me and her.Just an idea I decided to throw out there.  Good luck you guys.  I posted a before and after picture, and even have a new picture in my file.  Trying to get that stomach smaller, and get rid of these nasty rolls :(!!  hahahahaha.  Have a good one!!!